So Worth It.

I don't think it  would be misspeaking to say our greatest source of joy can also be our greatest source of pain.  I know this is true when it comes to my life.  For me, joy and pain come from those I let closest to me.  We are vunerable to what is close to us.  If it is close enough to your heart to warm it, it's also close enough to wound it.  This vunerabilty is the chance you have to take in order to experience greatness and love in life.  Like the saying "It is better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all".  There was a time I disagreed with that way of thinking.  The thought of the pain of loss (or a broken heart) so unbearable that I thought maybe I would sacrifice all the rest of it (the pleasure, the joy, the happiness) to not have to feel such anguish.  I would keep my heart guarded, and try not to let love in. But then I realized that no matter the magnitude of suffering that the loss of it might bring, the love itself and what it gives and does in my life is so worth it.  Now I try to embrace love with my whole being.  And I try to relax and just enjoy the ride, instead of constantly peering down the track, looking out for possible causes of derailment.  It is a daily choice for me, but one that I am happy to even have the chance to make.