Change the Station to Excavation

It has recently been brought to my attention that I may put too much emphasis on my kids.  But I am thinking "Isn't that the role of the mother?"  I always thought so.  You sacrifice yourself for your children.  Most of your waking hours spent on doing, and giving, and bettering.  I thought this was the way, and anything less would be worthy of guilt.  But, I guess I must have gotten lost in the process. Somewhere along the way I slipped into this motherhood vortex, losing any semblance of my former self.  Those who knew the pre-baby me, I guess that girl is dead.  Or maybe she is just buried alive somewhere, hands bloodied from clawing to get out, voice barely a whisper from yelling for rescue.  Perhaps when I lost part of my hearing, I lost the part that could hear her.  Whatever the case, I think I will get my shovel and help her out.